There's a pause as he lets himself get used to it, again. He will just... take it slow? He's going to only move a little bit further into the room this time! Although he's quiet, there's a fierce look of determination on his face. ]
[These kids really are remarkable... so strong and so courageous. Shido thinks that he, himself, doesn't have nearly half the bravery of either one. Yet despite them being the ones forcing themselves to face their fears, Shido has realized it isn't entirely a one-sided affair. In fact, he now plays something of the role of a guardian... someone who watches over them, allowing the boys to push themselves but only just so. Because as he's seen in the past, they only have one goal: to get over their fears, irregardless of how hard they have to push themselves to do it. They're teenagers... incredible teenagers, but still teenagers, still a bit foolhardy and reckless and impatient. He remembers the outright terror that had Goro shaking like a leaf at the end of one of their sessions, and that's something he wants to avoid if he can.
Of course, it's only been a few short months, and Shido hasn't spent nearly enough time with the boys to pick up on their tells before such a fit seizes them, so he mostly has to rely on a gut feeling and general knowledge. Though a slight bit of tension lingers in his form, Akira seems to be doing well enough at the moment that he's mostly relaxed.]
Akira's going to hold a blink, take a slow breath, and then... walk forward. Immediately, his brow tenses; he doesn't stop walking forward in time, either, to prevent the slam of a... very intense sick feeling.
He's immediately going pale, and then very slowly moving back to the doorway. His face is clammy by the time he gets there, one trembling hand moving to his mouth. ]
[Well, he supposes that's what one would call a "tell". He immediately moves to cover the pot with the lid, then walks over to Akira, placing his hands on his shoulders.]
Easy there. Come on, out of the kitchen.
[Hopefully they can move quickly enough to keep the nausea from overpowering him...]
[ He lets himself get walked as far as Shido feels he should be placed. Eventually, his breathing does return to normal. It's after they're eventually to the stopping point, he just...
... Gently grips the front of Shido's shirt, and then rests his forehead against the older man's chest. He's not going to say anything to explain. Just... this, apparently. ]
There is a moment of hesitance, but only just that— a moment— before a hand comes up to gently settle on Akira's upper back. It takes a few more seconds, however, before the gesture becomes firmer and more secure.
[ He will turn and head back towards the kitchen, somewhat quickly. Though, once he gets far enough in that the smell is prominent, he comes to a pause... and then, with only a little hesitance, decides to head back over to where he was. ]
[He examines the boy quietly. He looks... just like a normal teenager, and yet he's done so much, and gone through so much. Through some... truly horrific things...]
[ For just a moment, he kind of... stares... a little. ]
Ah...
[ With a softened expression, he glances to the side, one hand lifting to press against the back of his neck. There's a moment of silence for a while, and then he holds a blink. ]
[ Strangely enough, it's ridiculously difficult to look Shido in the eyes right now... ]
... Become like Goro and Kurama. [ holding a blink for a moment ] After that, birthdays... won't have as much of a meaning, I don't think. Every birthday will just wind up creating more and more of a gap between... me and my friends who are still- alive.
Don't get me wrong - I'd be happy watching them grow old. I'd- have.......
[ He's smiling, but there's something strained in it for a moment. And then... it cracks. His smile falters, the muscles in his expression twitch, and then he's lifting a hand to cover his face. Just like that, a part of the dam crumbles, the tears escape, and he begins to desperately work to put it all back together again. Shit... ]
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Date: 2018-07-29 11:11 am (UTC)There's a pause as he lets himself get used to it, again. He will just... take it slow? He's going to only move a little bit further into the room this time! Although he's quiet, there's a fierce look of determination on his face. ]
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Date: 2018-07-29 06:11 pm (UTC)Of course, it's only been a few short months, and Shido hasn't spent nearly enough time with the boys to pick up on their tells before such a fit seizes them, so he mostly has to rely on a gut feeling and general knowledge. Though a slight bit of tension lingers in his form, Akira seems to be doing well enough at the moment that he's mostly relaxed.]
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Date: 2018-07-30 03:43 am (UTC)Akira's going to hold a blink, take a slow breath, and then... walk forward. Immediately, his brow tenses; he doesn't stop walking forward in time, either, to prevent the slam of a... very intense sick feeling.
He's immediately going pale, and then very slowly moving back to the doorway. His face is clammy by the time he gets there, one trembling hand moving to his mouth. ]
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Date: 2018-08-01 06:58 pm (UTC)Easy there. Come on, out of the kitchen.
[Hopefully they can move quickly enough to keep the nausea from overpowering him...]
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Date: 2018-08-02 03:55 am (UTC)Sorry, I-... [ a pause ] Just... give me a moment... I-... I'll be fine!
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Date: 2018-08-02 04:14 am (UTC)You will be fine, but as you said, you need a moment. Relax, Akira, we've only just begun.
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Date: 2018-08-02 08:49 am (UTC)... Gently grips the front of Shido's shirt, and then rests his forehead against the older man's chest. He's not going to say anything to explain. Just... this, apparently. ]
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Date: 2018-08-02 05:45 pm (UTC)There is a moment of hesitance, but only just that— a moment— before a hand comes up to gently settle on Akira's upper back. It takes a few more seconds, however, before the gesture becomes firmer and more secure.
His voice is gentle.]
Take your time.
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Date: 2018-08-03 01:52 am (UTC)I... felt a little nauseous, and it had me... lightheaded...
[ THAT SURE IS A FROWN AND BLUSH, APPARENTLY??? ]
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Date: 2018-08-03 03:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-08-03 02:02 pm (UTC)Anyway... I feel better now, but I'm... guessing you'll argue against me diving right back in.
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Date: 2018-08-03 08:11 pm (UTC)If you think you're okay to dive right back in, I won't say no. But only if you're sure.
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Date: 2018-08-07 11:51 pm (UTC)... Okay.
[ He will turn and head back towards the kitchen, somewhat quickly. Though, once he gets far enough in that the smell is prominent, he comes to a pause... and then, with only a little hesitance, decides to head back over to where he was. ]
Maybe... after some water.
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Date: 2018-08-08 07:01 pm (UTC)At least he backs off reasonably quickly.
To the request, he gives a soundless nod, going to the kitchen to retrieve a cup of water for the teen and coming back in short order.]
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Date: 2018-08-09 01:40 am (UTC)Also he was going to grab a bottle of water from his inventory, his hand literally sliding into his pocket, at first... But...
... Seeing Shido getting some water for him, he gives a small smile and doesn't hesitate to take that instead. ]
Thanks.
[ He takes a few sips of it, eyes closing as he focuses on his breathing and on calming down. ]
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Date: 2018-08-11 02:52 am (UTC)... how old are you?
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Date: 2018-08-11 06:47 am (UTC)I turned seventeen a couple of months ago.
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Date: 2018-08-12 04:17 pm (UTC)While I was here? You didn't celebrate?
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Date: 2018-08-13 07:53 am (UTC)[ Maybe it'll be obvious he's actively putting effort into brushing this whole thing off as no big deal... ]
It wasn't something I really thought about, since it didn't seem important.
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Date: 2018-08-15 05:10 am (UTC)Akira, I know of plenty of people who would want to celebrate your being alive and here. [...] Don't you?
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Date: 2018-08-15 06:22 am (UTC)Ah...
[ With a softened expression, he glances to the side, one hand lifting to press against the back of his neck. There's a moment of silence for a while, and then he holds a blink. ]
... Yeah.
[ Sorry, he's having a Moment... ]
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Date: 2018-08-16 01:22 am (UTC)Have you told them?
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Date: 2018-08-17 03:48 am (UTC)[ He shrugs gently. ]
The truth is, though... I don't entirely see the point of celebrating a single day. Not when I'm going to d--
[ .......... ]
I-... [ fuck ] ... Guess you should know, eventually...
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Date: 2018-08-17 06:17 am (UTC)Not when you're going to... what?
[why is he getting a sinking feeling all of a sudden]
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Date: 2018-08-17 07:28 am (UTC)... Become like Goro and Kurama. [ holding a blink for a moment ] After that, birthdays... won't have as much of a meaning, I don't think. Every birthday will just wind up creating more and more of a gap between... me and my friends who are still- alive.
Don't get me wrong - I'd be happy watching them grow old. I'd- have.......
[ He's smiling, but there's something strained in it for a moment. And then... it cracks. His smile falters, the muscles in his expression twitch, and then he's lifting a hand to cover his face. Just like that, a part of the dam crumbles, the tears escape, and he begins to desperately work to put it all back together again. Shit... ]
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