[Shido isn't convinced Akira isn't pushing himself too hard. Goro had only faced his trauma two times, after all, and even that had been stretching it. Yet he's noticed that Akira has... something of a reckless streak...
Something he isn't sure he likes at all...
But he nevertheless soundlessly removes the lid from the pot, the smell of crab escaping and wafting through the air, and his gaze turns to carefully study Akira...]
[ Annnnd it's not so bad as to have him immediately turning pale, this time! He's briefly clenching his teeth, giving Shido a nod to let him know that it's okay for now.
For now...
He swallows thickly, and then... begins walking a little further into the room, closing just a bit of the space between himself and the stove. He's... just going to remain quiet for now? It's better to just... focus on keeping his thoughts calm. ]
[Shido's lips thin a bit, but he doesn't protest Akira's actions. He... worries for him, genuinely, but can't find a good enough reason to actually voice his concerns while he's doing alright.
Still, even though he doesn't say anything? The worry and concern is practically written all over his face. Traumas aren't something to be treated lightly, after all...]
There's a pause as he lets himself get used to it, again. He will just... take it slow? He's going to only move a little bit further into the room this time! Although he's quiet, there's a fierce look of determination on his face. ]
[These kids really are remarkable... so strong and so courageous. Shido thinks that he, himself, doesn't have nearly half the bravery of either one. Yet despite them being the ones forcing themselves to face their fears, Shido has realized it isn't entirely a one-sided affair. In fact, he now plays something of the role of a guardian... someone who watches over them, allowing the boys to push themselves but only just so. Because as he's seen in the past, they only have one goal: to get over their fears, irregardless of how hard they have to push themselves to do it. They're teenagers... incredible teenagers, but still teenagers, still a bit foolhardy and reckless and impatient. He remembers the outright terror that had Goro shaking like a leaf at the end of one of their sessions, and that's something he wants to avoid if he can.
Of course, it's only been a few short months, and Shido hasn't spent nearly enough time with the boys to pick up on their tells before such a fit seizes them, so he mostly has to rely on a gut feeling and general knowledge. Though a slight bit of tension lingers in his form, Akira seems to be doing well enough at the moment that he's mostly relaxed.]
Akira's going to hold a blink, take a slow breath, and then... walk forward. Immediately, his brow tenses; he doesn't stop walking forward in time, either, to prevent the slam of a... very intense sick feeling.
He's immediately going pale, and then very slowly moving back to the doorway. His face is clammy by the time he gets there, one trembling hand moving to his mouth. ]
[Well, he supposes that's what one would call a "tell". He immediately moves to cover the pot with the lid, then walks over to Akira, placing his hands on his shoulders.]
Easy there. Come on, out of the kitchen.
[Hopefully they can move quickly enough to keep the nausea from overpowering him...]
[ He lets himself get walked as far as Shido feels he should be placed. Eventually, his breathing does return to normal. It's after they're eventually to the stopping point, he just...
... Gently grips the front of Shido's shirt, and then rests his forehead against the older man's chest. He's not going to say anything to explain. Just... this, apparently. ]
There is a moment of hesitance, but only just that— a moment— before a hand comes up to gently settle on Akira's upper back. It takes a few more seconds, however, before the gesture becomes firmer and more secure.
[ He will turn and head back towards the kitchen, somewhat quickly. Though, once he gets far enough in that the smell is prominent, he comes to a pause... and then, with only a little hesitance, decides to head back over to where he was. ]
[He examines the boy quietly. He looks... just like a normal teenager, and yet he's done so much, and gone through so much. Through some... truly horrific things...]
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Date: 2018-07-29 04:28 am (UTC)Right... so... [ a nod! ] Ready whenever you are.
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Date: 2018-07-29 04:53 am (UTC)Something he isn't sure he likes at all...
But he nevertheless soundlessly removes the lid from the pot, the smell of crab escaping and wafting through the air, and his gaze turns to carefully study Akira...]
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Date: 2018-07-29 05:26 am (UTC)For now...
He swallows thickly, and then... begins walking a little further into the room, closing just a bit of the space between himself and the stove. He's... just going to remain quiet for now? It's better to just... focus on keeping his thoughts calm. ]
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Date: 2018-07-29 05:40 am (UTC)Still, even though he doesn't say anything? The worry and concern is practically written all over his face. Traumas aren't something to be treated lightly, after all...]
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Date: 2018-07-29 06:40 am (UTC)I'm... not pushing too hard this time, all right? [ offering him a smile!!! ] Promise. The second it feels like too much... I'll back off.
[ And... he won't even be pushing forward, for now! He's going to wait until Shido calms down. ]
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Date: 2018-07-29 07:01 am (UTC)Alright. Just remember, we have plenty of time, and we've still only just begun doing this.
[This sort of thing generally takes... quite awhile to get through, doesn't it? Even a fifth time is still reasonably early on, he thinks.]
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Date: 2018-07-29 11:11 am (UTC)There's a pause as he lets himself get used to it, again. He will just... take it slow? He's going to only move a little bit further into the room this time! Although he's quiet, there's a fierce look of determination on his face. ]
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Date: 2018-07-29 06:11 pm (UTC)Of course, it's only been a few short months, and Shido hasn't spent nearly enough time with the boys to pick up on their tells before such a fit seizes them, so he mostly has to rely on a gut feeling and general knowledge. Though a slight bit of tension lingers in his form, Akira seems to be doing well enough at the moment that he's mostly relaxed.]
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Date: 2018-07-30 03:43 am (UTC)Akira's going to hold a blink, take a slow breath, and then... walk forward. Immediately, his brow tenses; he doesn't stop walking forward in time, either, to prevent the slam of a... very intense sick feeling.
He's immediately going pale, and then very slowly moving back to the doorway. His face is clammy by the time he gets there, one trembling hand moving to his mouth. ]
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Date: 2018-08-01 06:58 pm (UTC)Easy there. Come on, out of the kitchen.
[Hopefully they can move quickly enough to keep the nausea from overpowering him...]
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Date: 2018-08-02 03:55 am (UTC)Sorry, I-... [ a pause ] Just... give me a moment... I-... I'll be fine!
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Date: 2018-08-02 04:14 am (UTC)You will be fine, but as you said, you need a moment. Relax, Akira, we've only just begun.
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Date: 2018-08-02 08:49 am (UTC)... Gently grips the front of Shido's shirt, and then rests his forehead against the older man's chest. He's not going to say anything to explain. Just... this, apparently. ]
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Date: 2018-08-02 05:45 pm (UTC)There is a moment of hesitance, but only just that— a moment— before a hand comes up to gently settle on Akira's upper back. It takes a few more seconds, however, before the gesture becomes firmer and more secure.
His voice is gentle.]
Take your time.
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Date: 2018-08-03 01:52 am (UTC)I... felt a little nauseous, and it had me... lightheaded...
[ THAT SURE IS A FROWN AND BLUSH, APPARENTLY??? ]
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Date: 2018-08-03 03:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-08-03 02:02 pm (UTC)Anyway... I feel better now, but I'm... guessing you'll argue against me diving right back in.
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Date: 2018-08-03 08:11 pm (UTC)If you think you're okay to dive right back in, I won't say no. But only if you're sure.
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Date: 2018-08-07 11:51 pm (UTC)... Okay.
[ He will turn and head back towards the kitchen, somewhat quickly. Though, once he gets far enough in that the smell is prominent, he comes to a pause... and then, with only a little hesitance, decides to head back over to where he was. ]
Maybe... after some water.
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Date: 2018-08-08 07:01 pm (UTC)At least he backs off reasonably quickly.
To the request, he gives a soundless nod, going to the kitchen to retrieve a cup of water for the teen and coming back in short order.]
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Date: 2018-08-09 01:40 am (UTC)Also he was going to grab a bottle of water from his inventory, his hand literally sliding into his pocket, at first... But...
... Seeing Shido getting some water for him, he gives a small smile and doesn't hesitate to take that instead. ]
Thanks.
[ He takes a few sips of it, eyes closing as he focuses on his breathing and on calming down. ]
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Date: 2018-08-11 02:52 am (UTC)... how old are you?
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Date: 2018-08-11 06:47 am (UTC)I turned seventeen a couple of months ago.
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Date: 2018-08-12 04:17 pm (UTC)While I was here? You didn't celebrate?
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Date: 2018-08-13 07:53 am (UTC)[ Maybe it'll be obvious he's actively putting effort into brushing this whole thing off as no big deal... ]
It wasn't something I really thought about, since it didn't seem important.
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